william the weird

IMPT!!

2009-10-01T06:25:00.000-07:00

blog moved! ^^
rationale: i want to use my gmail account to post, no need to sign in sign out everytime i wan to post..
URL: http://williamscontemplations.blogspot.com
relink and thanks!:)

23/9/09

2009-09-23T05:08:00.000-07:00

WHEE~~~~ birthday!!!!!!!
OMG! im 15! thats like so old and agedddd la!
ok...first things first: IMPT update: i will be constantly tagging my posts so as to make life easier for myself and you...if you want to find a post of a certain category, its all listed down there!

ok

thank God for 15 awesome years of my life, for putting me where am i now, for putting me in this awesome CCA which i have make So many friends in, thanks for making my life better. Thanks for everything!
Today went quite normal…cleared RC room in the afternoon…felt quite accomplished…
Then bought drinks using money from *censored* …yah…
Lets see…oh yah
Today philo liao…um…discussed abt Confucius’s so-called Superior Man…how’s he should be and all that
Not sure if the list they gave was accurate…but living according to that list is impossible man…
It gives description of someone who is both mature and pure…I guess when someone reached an uber-high stage of maturity, he will discover that it is pureness… kinda like babies…
Those qualities are pure and untainted virtues…”we are born with them, but we need to find them within us” this shows that we are born good, but the big bad world has polluted us … it is human nature to do good…but the worldly desires and others actions taught us how to deceive, lie, cheat and use all kinds of lowly measures to bring us what our greed demands…is all these cause d by our in-built desires, or are we influenced by the others around us?

Ok…lets say that I put on a façade of smiles, but deep inside, I am hurt and feeling cold…would anyone notice my fake smile, would anyone care? Why would people do such things, why are we so insensitive? Words are powerfully weapons against hearts and souls. The damage they cause, the wounds they inflict, may never heal…
Hmmm….a bit the poetic…

PJ going liao…sigh…she has impacted me a lot man…guess you have to let go…
Lastly,
THANKS FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES EVERYONE! THEY TOTALLY MADE MY DAY!

20/9/09

2009-09-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

HI all
sorry........forgot to post....
anyway. today i went out to sorta "celebrate" my birthday since that i wont be home on wed.
went to buy new phone, but must wait until contract finishes on 5th Oct... 2 more weeks! XD I want new phone!!!
then went to eat dinner, but cake..ya...food quite nice la, quite full.
so anyway philo talk about Confucius... cant believe a non-Chinese teaching chinese philosophy... i believe the essence of Confucianism is in the Diction of the words...
hoho...must keep my mind open....
so...first lesson talked about the um..."correct" way of doing things...utilitarian, the truth...and all that....
me personally thinks that there is no hard and fast rule to determine whether one's action is right or wrong...we cant judge them, as diff things matters differently to each and everyone of us...
but there are "general" things that are universally agreed though....
religions do tend to provided people with a set if rules to follow though... does this shows that people needs confirmation on what they do?
maybe... i dont get it why some people are so against certain religions...doesnt all religion tends to teach people to do good? if it doesnt, then its called a cult, not religion....
like once i have read a argument...it states, even if God is not real, you will lead a nice life, being kind and contributing to the world"

wargh..... need organize my thoughts

forget it...go sleep liao...tmr still have first aiders on wheels...gonna cycle for 5 hrs...

15/9/09

2009-09-15T06:19:00.000-07:00

haha, i remember wrong, no philo today.....
its tmr
anyway
i got caught bu tutor msning again:( this time name kena taken down :(
aiya
smoke through with excuse la...DMP got what to mug...
anyway...debates today was not bad..ate dinner during debrief...haha
does one's identity comes nature or nuture?
so if a chinese/indian/african lived in USA since young, does it make him a American?or is he stil who he was?
thats the problem i thought of during debates
so.....extension of it to my life
if theres a chinese that lived in the western styleof education, taught western values, speak english, used fork and knifes, IS HE STILL A CHINESE?
can we fault his lack of grasp in chinese for that????
i shall think about it...

14/9/09

2009-09-14T05:44:00.000-07:00

hi! i am back in boarding again!
whee~
hurhur...today's tutor is good....doesnt care much and i can msn all i like..
too bad it hanged just now...
since it hanged, i shall blog instead
hmmm
dmp started...fun!
but EOys also coming soon... bleh....
need file+revise all my stuff...argh
looking forward to tomorrow...can go for philo dmp! cool!
shall post tmr about philo!
okok
anyway, does experience matter?
in short term, it does, but in long- term, things change, ppl change, nothing is the same! so does what we experience 10 years ago still count?
so what seperates long term from short term? when does oour experiences become obsolete? theres no hard and fast rule, so how can we tell if some old man advices you something, how do you know if it still works?
interesting......experince hummmm

10/9/09

2009-09-10T05:52:00.000-07:00

haiz
today i shall talk about generation gap
wow...am i rebelling now? :0
anyway
the ideals and actions of parents and children is incommensurable
whatever the child is going through, the parent do not know about and do not understand.
how many of us shares our problems with parents? very very little.
why? we think that they dont understand us.
they do not know whats happening in school, what do we value most.... etc etc
although they can, but most of us choose not to...
anyway...some parents say that they are children once. true, but their times is different from ours. can i say that "i have been to africa 30 years ago, therefore, i know what is it like to be in africa now" things change... very drastically too

ok

what i am saying here is that they dont understand.. but they still might be right...after all, they are more experienced in life. however, we will only know whos correct, when we are old and have gone past both the child and parent phrase.

6/9/09

2009-09-06T06:49:00.000-07:00

POC over.........
very stressed during the day itself, debates party clashed with POC debrief.
somehow nobody seemed to understand the importance of Debates to me......
emoed quite a lot during that day...
i dont want to make a decision yet....
i love debates, i love RC.... i enjoy both tremendously....
haiz...need to talk to someone about it.....
should i follow my heart, or follow logic?

sigh
sigh

2/9/09

2009-09-02T05:50:00.000-07:00

whalao
today tutor so tight one
cannnot msn under his eyes......
is not like theres anything to mug wha...tmr also no test.
bleh >:P
i should be self-studying bio but oh well who cares....
anyway...
tuesday was quite good, discussed quite a lot of stuff.
lets see.....
"after you die...its like you entered a waiting room, waiting for judgement day"
wow...thats a new perspective.... judgement day....does it judge all people, living and dead, or only the living?
so we dont get to go to heaven after we die, but we need to wait for judgement day?
hopes its not too long a wait lor.....
but in the end, we all get judged before we go to heaven or hell.

it is mentioned in the Bible (exact verse and wording cant remember)
something like when judgement day comes, some people will go to Jesus and claim to be his followers
but Jesus will say
I dont know you, Go Away!
i hope that this will not be what will happpen to me.
sinners watch out, for if you are not sincere, not pure, not true... this might happen
arent we all sinners?

"if something is bad, why do people keep on doing it?"--
so why? maybe we dont know it is bad, maybe we submit to temptations, maybe it gives us temporary gratification
but where does being racist, evil falls under?
unlike smoking, drinking, it does not gives us temporary gratification
unlike peer pessure, nobody wants you to be racist...
unlike ignorance, it is the social norm to think of racism as bad, and indeed it is.
so why do people keep doing it?
do they seriously believe that they are right, that some people are not human?
they are not the KKK, they should know better
do they insult for the sake of insulting? or do they have nothing to do?

next thing....we can feel love before hate...
babies can love before they know abt hate...
love is natural, but hate is not that natural
then since love comes first, doe sit generate hate?
it might, since if u love something, u hate its opposite.
so they are like light and dark, neither can exist w/o the other?

last thing...those ppl that i hate
i just discovered
i dont hate them
i hate those traits that they have
when those traits are not shown...
i think they are decent ppl
but when those traits are shown... i have another opinion
thats enough
need to go liao

31/8/09

2009-08-31T03:00:00.000-07:00

ok
the previous post was random and unorganized...cannot qualify for contemplations....
anyway...today went to do popcorn...(if u dun understand, good, its not meant to be understood because u never know who visits ur blog)
and then went to get uniform parts from RC HQ....
i AM NOT GOING TO LET SOME STUPID QMs SPOIL MY POPCORN.
yah.....
whee~ 5 more days!

30/8/09

2009-08-30T06:26:00.000-07:00

hi all~
whee, 5 days holidays are only half gone...
amyway, i want to talk about vigilantism today.
so why does society not allow people to take justice into their own hands?
the obvious answer is that that person's justice may not be what the society agrees as justice.
but what if that persons sense of justice is the same as society's?
if a there is a murderer thats so smart to hide all evidence pointing towards him, but yet everyone knows that he did it, wouldnt it be better if some vigilant just go kill him?
apparently, society's laws dont think so. thereofore, there must be something fundamentally wrong with skipping the process of judging someone, and going to the appropriate punishment directly.
so what is that fundamental mistake?
is it the respect of law?
or the potential that vigilant may become something far more dangerous?

ok

just read an debate.
thoughts: it seems that most arguments rely upon the assumption that vigilant have an inaccurate sense of justice. but if someone does, will his actions be justified?
hmmm.... a vigilant takes away another persons right to life without permission....just like what his victim did.....
is the "permission" of law so powerful, that it can mean between right or wrong?
even if the outcome is still the same?
apparently, it is.
so its kinda like someone doing something even they are not told to do so...
kinda like when u took the sweets that are meant for you without permission, then kena scolding.

whats the difference between this and initiative? one does good things, one does bad things? but then again, good and bad is objective....
whee
enough liao
thanks for reading!

27/8/09

2009-08-27T04:46:00.000-07:00

whee~ has been living in boardng for almost a week now...
not bad....can wake up late everyday....and sleeps late too
can use msn, facebook during prep, just dont get caught can liao

i emoed a bit this morning....dunno why...self-doubt?
i shall try to explain my emo-ness
i believe in a few things
1) we should not impose our personal beliefs on others
2) i hate certain people

these few days i am seriously loathing some people
some people who cant put their prejudices down for 5 minutes to be a fitting judge
some people who cant respect others
some people who claim to be christians but goes against many things that the Bible theach us
some people that just cant seem to understand that we are all humans
some people that enjoy causing harm to others, be it physical or mental
some people who are pusedo-christians

i really feel like causing harm to these people
some of them are scums of our society and dont have the right to esxist, let alone to be studing in RI.
however, i started to think that i am contradicting myself. by judging these people, am i contradicting my belief that we should not impose our beliefs on thes people? arent i wishing to take my version of justice, and wipe them of the face of our society if i can? am i not imposing my ideals?
but arent most of these ideals those that which we build our socitey on? "all men are created equal" isnt this what our society believes as well? then am i still imposing my beliefs on others?
am i justified to hate them?
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this doesnt change the fact that i still loathe them though.
i tried hard to love them, but i just cant.
why are these people that i hate claim to be christians
oh God, pls let me love, tolerate them, or let them change their ways. Amen

now onto the second part (this is going to be the longest post)
when someone is tempted with the greastest tempatation, does his actions reflect his true personality? of course if he is not shaken, then hes a good person lah.
but what if he sccumbed to it?
how many of us will do something bad, if we can be garunteed not to get caught?
is the greatest temptation a true test of who we are?
how many can pass the test?
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placed under a strict system, none of us will do anything out of the line.
does that reveals our true selfs?
what is a suitable test then?
do we even hae a true self???

ok
thats enough random contemplations for a day.
see ya~

16/8/09

2009-08-16T06:20:00.000-07:00

whee, these few days are quite full of good stuff
an above expected GPA, nice marks for chem oba and PASSED FD SILVER! whee~ thank God:)
only have OA broze and theory to pass LP liao, yay!
LP standard so like siao, i think half our batch may not meet requirements eh
anyway, THANK YOU DD FOR PASSING ME!
ok, now i dont owe you anything.
yay
a lot of test these few weeks, still waiting for results.
good luck to me

9/8/09

2009-08-09T07:35:00.000-07:00

national day...was not bad, didnt really watch though, same like the previous years.
anyway, this blog now shall be more than just a diary of what i did in everyday, i shall post things that went through my mind frequently on this blog, so anticipate big words and long post, and if you disagree/agree/wants to add on to what i have said, pls do tag, i will be more than happy to response. if this is not your cup of tea, just check back once in a while, you nvr know what may come up here ;)
anyway, i went LAN on saturday, was damn fun. played CS, i need to brush up my skills more, woo~ cant wait for the next time......:)
went to watch movie and cycle on friday with friends, UP was quite nice, it was funny and tense at times, not bad indeed.
ahhhh, spent 20 dollars in 2 days, broke liao ;_;
basically thats it lah, yah, nothing else.

chem teacher :" give me an example of acidic oxide, kelvin"
kelvin "ehh.........shit"

lol, damn funny.

shall post about contemplations another day, will go bed now

6/8/09

2009-08-06T06:37:00.000-07:00

hi all again.....
today's RLP opening wasnt bad... quite fun.
had some fun games and all that, played basketball and went gym before that, met some new people.....
why does everyone act so shocked when they heard that i am going LAN/going gym/play com games. i know i need results to go in RI, but i am not a mugger, i have a social life other than studying....
which nicely leads me to the thoughts that i have today.
i believe that in the world today, having good grades are not the most important anymore. what is important is what process through your head. mugging does not reflect ones personality, ideals, beliefs and way of thought. a social life is just as important as it teaches you soft skills and such. these are what makes you you, and those schools/companies in the future wants to accept/hire you, not some mugging machine.
therefore, pls think, it is what makes us humans where we are. without thoughts and philosophies going through our brains, we are only concerned about having a comfortable life, money and other worldly desires. then what is different from the animals then?
i pity those who only having studying in their life.
anyway, one may ask what is the point of all these thought like meaning of life, world problems and such. well, i can only say that its your life, although discussing these stuff may not seem to have any impact, but it enriches your way if thinking, make yourself question, ask, contemplate about stuff. and if we dont even have a thought about a thing, how are we supposed to change it?

now for the emo part.
am i an extrovert and an introvert? i act like i like talking a lot, but i seldom share my deep and innermost thought with other people.
i think i am an extrovert on the outside, an introvert in the inside
had a discussion with someone yesterday.... haiz.... it was quite good
this blog shall remain as one of the few ways my inner mind opens to others.
so if you are curious about what goes on in my head that i did not tell you, check back often :P

2/8/09

2009-08-02T02:47:00.000-07:00

haiz.....
dunno whether should i cry or laugh at the extension of cac video deadline....just when i thought it was over, it jumped right back at me.... it means i will miss debates again ><
FOP was awesome! the speaker was good too, brought a new perspective to me....:)
yah, thats basically it, im off to study for history.

31/7/09

2009-07-31T06:46:00.000-07:00

tag replies~
charmy: hi!
tommy: thanks
yuwen: hi! long time no see liao....
jason: crab!
darrell： yah, want have a match someday :P
gang: i very lazy link one
jeremy: smack...
fiona: yo! must get good result in EOY, then go europe!

tmr got red cross carnival at east coast park big splash! pls be there! can see me you know! i will be a gamemaster! muahaha!

30/7/09

2009-07-30T06:48:00.000-07:00

whew, finished the cac video, hope its awesome :D
some random contemplation that i have,
i sometimes wonder what will happen if someone dies,
will he/she just disappear without a trace? will we try to call him/her, but receive no answer?
will someone actually FIND OUT that he/she died instead of constantly ignoring the calls and smses?
will anybody find out? if they did, how?
so many questions......
if no one is to notice my death, instead, all they will see is a absence of my presence, have i made an impact on their lifes? perhaps the only thing is a little noise at the back of their heads wondering where am i....
yah, i not emo ok, its just some random thoughts.
hmmm, shall i post some more random thoughts?
yes, i shall
only faith that has been tested through fire is faith that will stand.
has been reading quite a lot of interesting articles lately, about atheism. (the belief that there is no god of any sort) it stated that atheist are generally disliked by american public, and is less likely to get votes than muslims, blacks and woman in an election. but there's no hate crimes against them, unlike blacks and muslims. thats weird...
do people think that people who are godless is more likely to do bad stuff? more likely to step out of the line? partly true.... does an atheist believe in "what goes around, comes around"? cos if they do, then they will be "good".
another thing is about suicide... (inspired by chinese textbook) if a certain religion forbids people from suiciding (like almost all)?
does it imply that the god cares about out present life and wants us to cherish it as much as our next? then shouldnt we also cherish our life and enjoy it, instead of sacrifice it entirely to religion until that your own basic needs of living are neglected? like Tibetan monks and those extremist that blows stuff up...they put their basic comfort of living at the side....is this the right thing to do?

questions questions....oh well, we may never know....

23/7/09

2009-07-22T20:28:00.000-07:00

wow, didnt post for quite a long time...........
anyway, i fell sick on tuesday. probabaly a normal flu, but with symptoms like H1N1, better be careful. is getting better now though (hence the blogging)

so many projects to finish! must make use of the time i spent slacking to choing those stuff.
signing out to do bio liao...

9/7/09

2009-07-09T05:26:00.000-07:00

hmmm. since i finished my homework, i should post a bit :)
today while discussing about CAC 1 minute of fame, crapped with our lovely residential (literally) red cross scholar :)
he commented :"it is human nature to do good, but the ways of doing it makes the result bad"
contemplating on that now...kinda makes sense with ancient chinese philosophy.
this will mean that our starting point is good for actions, but the method that we uses to achieve our aims sucks. like Hitler, he wanted to "improve" the german empire, which can be seen as good to a certain extent, however, he resorts to killing of Jews and many other people.
woo, shall think more about that.
oh and he and one other guy really amazed me by their wide general knowledge... seriously know all those "useless" fun facts.
yay.......

5/7/09

2009-07-04T19:42:00.000-07:00

holy cow~~ didnt realize that almost 1 month nvr post liao
cambodia was awesome, lots of old temples and stuff.
no doubt a developing country though, the first picture is the best and only shopping mall in the city we went. hope that they will develop after 20 years or so.
many people living in poverty and living on farming due to the long civil war.

ok....trip to shanghai was not bad... i fell sick on the 2nd day....
luckily i manage to recover in time and meet everyone that i am suppose to meet :)

had been very busy lately... just sent an uber screwed poster to the competition, got 1 more project to finish, need go to first aid test tmr.... wish me luck... die die must pass one :o

oh and one last thing... vatsal you are dead when i see you. typing fail ah you, email address can type wrong one. a becomes q. because of you ah, our submition of poster 3 hrs late you know!

7/6/09

2009-06-17T07:26:00.000-07:00

haha. long time never post liao....
just came back from Cambodia yesterday, and will be leaving again for China tmr :O
busy rite.....
lol, will post about cambodia when i have the chance. seriously too much to say....
sneaking up a quick post...
hope that i can get internet in China, probably can, so still can go facebook and gmail :)
oh, and i think fish wrangler is better now.

2009-06-08T04:04:00.001-07:00

tag responses:
you sheng: hope that nov camp will be much better :)
DD: NEVER call me that.
anty:good point, but although we cannot judge a person, we can judge their actions. for example, Hitler's massacre of Jews is a devious action while Gandhi freeing India without violence is a good action. secondly, we have enough evidence to support our views on these people. like we know lots of hitler's atrocities and ganhdi's good deeds. we can form a judgment on their character. BUT the judgment is not and never will be accurate.

hmmmmmm, which makes me think that actually we are not judging people by their virtues, but by their actions instead. But actions can be misleading, thus they are not as good as the virtues, which are quite constant in one's life. is it because that we cannot judge by virtue, then we settle for the second best--the actions?
like i have said, these judgments are and never will be accurate, judging is a useless process which will get us nowhere. However, it seems that is human to judge and we cant avoid it anyway....

acceptable? :) any more thoughts pls bring them up, will be more than glad to think about them!

7/6/09

2009-06-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

hmmm, this post shall be long.
ok, someone posed a question "how do we judge people?", he think the answer is by their virtues,i think that is correct, but how do we know their virtues?
we know them by their actions, or so we thought, but ones perspective of another is so limited, we do not monitor others 24/7, they may behave completely different when we are not looking or around. we can never say for sure that "this is what he will do" we will just never know.
even if we are like control freaks and spy on people 24/7 and thus be able to see all their actions, we do not know the motives behind their actions. for example, we see one guy giving up his seat for an old lady, he may do it entirely out of goodwill, or he may do that unwillingly because someone glared at him, or he may do it because his teacher is around. you see what i mean? we can never know the true motives of an action. of course, some may say that the motive is not important, as long as the action is done, it is good. but under the same circumstances, the guy with the first motive will do it no matter what, the second motive will not do it and neither will the third. so they motive does matter.
ok, my conclusion, we will never know the true virtues of people, and we can never judge them accurately. so we should not even judge people.
who are we to decide that our fellow humans are flawed, when we are equally flawed? who are we to judge their mistakes, when the same mistakes have been repeated by us? who are we to determine their personalities, when our own personalities are just the same? i believe that we are not to judge, but observe others flaws and remind ourselves and others not to commit them again (in vain most of the times). only God will and can judge when the time comes, only He is capable of judging as He is much more perfect then us mortals.

ok, now about camp. well, bad lah, but nevermind, we live and learn and improve upon our mistakes. GO B58!
yay!

oh yeah, death note is awesome!

camp!

2009-06-01T06:50:00.000-07:00

yay! will be going for camp in the next 3 days!
camp may entails the following:
1) screwing every day
2) around 2 hours of sleep
3) handling lots of sec1/2
4) trying to do everything according to plan in vain
5) hope that might not come
please use with caution

whee~

22/5/09

2009-05-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

yeah! tmr is open house! will have so much fun!! woo!~
nowadays seriously got mood swings sia, i used to deny to existence of mood swings, but now i get them on a daily basis. kena screwed by my debate teacher twice in 3 days, today i did not went for training coz i need to rush the production of a video which i am overall in charge. then she was like shaking her head and walking away. WTF! i only ponned training for less then 5 times in these 5 months okay, come on lah, time is limited for everybody. i have other things to do, even if i view debates as most important, i also need to rush other deadlines rite.

next week got 4 test! wee!~ all shall suffer and die!

humans are such an diverse species of animals, we have the most horrendous acts like War and genocide on one hand, while on the other hand, we have people like Mother Theresa who are selfless and care for others. this is so complicated and seriously, why cant we just care for others and be a little bit more considerate about other's feelings? why cant all these negative thoughts like racism just be gone?

the human mind is both fascinating and hideous at the same time.

20/5/09

2009-05-20T06:59:00.000-07:00

yeah! finally i get to post again!
so many tests, seriously not much time to post sia...
next test is not coming till next week, thats why i am relaxing a bit here:P
this week has been quite busy, as usual, but not bad lah. my chem cct was ok, and i did a quite up to standard (at least to myself) debate on tuesday.
went for drama fest auditions today... lol, not bad lah, hope they will let me in, but then it may clash with red cross CAC training... lol, see how things work out at the end lah... will find a way one, lets not worry about a problem before it became a problem.

next week will be the last week of term 2!, then it will be red cross camp! woo!~ cant wait!

9/5/09

2009-05-09T07:18:00.000-07:00

hi all again, this week wasnt too bad.
yeah! i created a facebook account after much pressure!
lol, time for one too, just like how i got this blog.
anyway, facebook isnt that bad, quite fun.
happy mothers day! church's mother day special event wasnt bad, it was quite good.
really
lol, dun know what to say and feel like so much to say at the same time :P
night guys:)
oh and the dine in the dark event wasnt bad.
eating in the dark isnt as hard as it seems,
in fact, the biggest problem is that you dont know what are you eating until it goes in your mouth.
Mark*i think i found some mash potato*
*oh shit, i ate a mouth ful of tartar sauce*
yep, thats interesting.
i coped a cup of lime juice during the event! woo!

3/5/09

2009-05-02T22:37:00.000-07:00

hohoho... camp details are almost done!
spent whole morning yesterday doing red cross camp stuff, but cannot say anything, or else i will DIE! :) cant wait for june camp!
yesterday went to friends house, nvr go church to study with the rest, haha
dunno what they did.
lol, it was quite fun there though, got lots of pizza and junk food, ate so much salt, msg, man-made addictives and sugar liao.
i'm such a health freak lol.
i should be doing my history essay though, almost done liao, but oh well, i am bored :P

its so sad to see friends broke apart, those who once are inseparable now become like strangers. but its all part and parcel of growing up, and outsiders cant say much or do much. all that will never be the same, even if people make up again. cracks that were made can never be fully healed. why cant people just forgive and forget? Humans are the most complicated thing in the whole universe. we will never understand others feelings or emotions. we never know what others are like, never.
BFF? a nice dream only.

29/4/09

2009-04-29T06:06:00.000-07:00

woo, things are looking up:)
wont say why, but its been better:)
can see from the smilies right:)

lost my USB stick though:(

i DEFINITELY have mood swings due to some factors.
lol

26/4/09

2009-04-25T21:10:00.000-07:00

woo! RI won the Singapore Secondary Schools debating championships on friday!
it was totally awesome! i hope i could be a part of the team next year!
the finals were so cool, seriously, dun even know how to say liao.
around 50 plus people went for the finals and after we won the championship, all of us sang the school song outside the hall and lots of people looked at us.
freaking cool! woo! really hope i can also be part of the tean next year....... must train extra extra extra hard!

saturday was parent teacher meeting, there was some parents that were really funny
example 1:
*me walks to 2 other guys in juinor block*
*a mother approaches us* "who's in charge?"
*i point to the other guys*
"aiyou, no more cups at the drink liao eh! how come?*
one of the two guys" ma'am, i not in charge of the cups, i also dun know how come no cups liao"
"huh!? i am going to reflect that!"*walks away angrily*
me "what the heck!"
seriously, how many schools offer drinks during parent teacher meetings, appreciate what you got. come on, so what if no more cups? reflect every small thing ah, who do you think you are? so arrogant sia.
most of the parents were nice people though, with a few expectations.
lol, i was so cynical that day.

23/4/09

2009-04-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

yeah! i pass my 2.4km! got an D! 13:40! fastest i've ever ran!
now, i hope i can conquer standing board jump and aim for silver!

tmr got a big guy come visit our school
china minister of education leh!
too bad i cannot go to and "greet" or ‘salute" him
all because i dun have the stupid buttons for my uniform:(

tmr got JG finals!
go debaters! woo!

cool illusion

2009-04-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

it appears that the dancer is spinning in one direction, but leave it here, go do some other stuff, it will change a direction! (i need to shook my head vigorously to see the change)

emo

2009-04-21T00:29:00.000-07:00

i really dont know whether i should say what i want to say, i am struggling with myself these 2 days and i just feel so emo and down sometimes and happy sometimes.

i probably should face my problems *sigh*

i viewed one of my friends in china's blog, she talked about how she feels about the impending exams. i chatted with her via MSN an below are the thoughts i had afterwards.

on my resume to RI, it stated that i am an adptable person. so what? what price did it came at? what did i scarificed to become so-called "adaptable"? i rather i am not adaptable and stick in a place for the majority of my life. i havent spent more than 2 years in any school, with any particular guy/girl. i feel like a pathetic frog in a pond, i try hard to get myself familiar to the surrondings, after 1 year or so, when i started to make friends, get to know people and starting to enjoy it, i got scooped up and thrown in another environment, and need to start all over again. people takes time to warm up, and its not their fault to behave coldly/badly to a guy that butts in from nowhere. everytime when i feel that i am a part, i will be teleported somewhere else. sometimes i just feel so extra and left out as an outsider,but its not their fault, really, it isnt. Xavier has commented that i am a guy who cannot stand loneliness, he is right. am i lonely now? i honestly dont know, sometimes i feel happy because of the life i have now, other times i feel quite the opposite.

up till now the only places where i can identified with is my church cell and secondary school in China( perhaps of the reason that i joined it in sec 1, with everybody else?) and maybe my cca is going to be in the list soon.

i kept on thinking about how life would be like if i did not make these big decisions, i think one certain thing is that i will have more friends. if i was asked to name my best friends, i can only say 1. i am tired of being to outsider in the majority of the week, and only feel like i can be who i am during cell on saturday.

i pray to God that i will try harder to make friends, and be undeterred by other people's attitudes. i pray that i will make more friends in time to come, and stay connected to my old friends. i pray that i can be a listening ear, and there will be someone there for me to talk to when i am down. Amen

whew, longest post ever, and maybe i will take it down.

19/4/09

2009-04-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

hi all,
and whoever is reading this.
i probably should be in bed by now, but never mind that
woo, next week theres a super nerdy chinese current affiars com!

12/4/09

2009-04-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

didnt post long again....
lol, also didnt go others blog for long time liao, coz very busy and stressed. lol
i think that there are some smatrass bastar*s in my class and they dont deserve to be in RI, but thats just my thoughts and i might be wrong, lucky that theres cell on every saturday to calm myself down and meet up with friends.
thanks God that i had make so many friends through cell and church!

still very busy....
arghhh! term 1 report coming out soon! die liao lah!

3/4/09

2009-04-04T08:01:00.000-07:00

this is a week of ups and downs, BIG ones too.
as you see below, monday was crappy.
tuesday was an off day, so slacked at home (up)
wednesday i took my red cross evacuation bronze test, and i passed! (up)
thursday was really bad, i failed my silver test by 1 question and my pencil box ended up in a scholar's bag. (big down) i was saying vulgarities under my breath for the whole evening during debate trainings. BUT at night i received a letter i was waiting for! i got moe's ESIP scholarship! 200$ off per month! whoo!~(up)
friday i retook my silver test and i passed! (up)(though i think the instructor went easy on me)
saturday i spent the whole day at the red cross campsite for the gold test, to my surprise, i passed in the end! whoo!~~~~~~~~ a week's worth of hard work paid off! (up)
on the whole, i really wanted to thank God and congrats myself on the weeks worth of events, i feel i became more mature and closer to God in the process.

deciding whether to give myself a small holiday on mondays cca:P

30/3/09

2009-03-30T06:11:00.000-07:00

OMG! feeling really a bit stressed out now.
got red cross 2 task in charge of operation
got projects homework
got one chinese competition captain
got Research education captain
got red cross test on wed, thurs and sat.

darn it.... theres some people in RI that is really BASTA*DS wtf...
really feel like spamming the blog with vulgar today after an afternoon.
must refrain from that..... wtf :P
tuesday is staff training day!（ＡＧＡＩＮ）got 1 day off! deciding on whether going to cca or not. *sigh*

bullshit lah!

PUN

2009-03-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

why cant a man starve in the desert? he can eat the sand which is there.

Vote Earth

2009-03-21T07:35:00.000-07:00

many of you may have already know, its Earth Hour on 28 march 8:30~9:30
switch off your lights in that time to show your support to Earth.
Earth is in a bad state, we can change it before its too late. we have the power to make a better future. lets start doing it through Earth Hour.

http://www.voteearth2009.org/home/
http://www.earthhour.org/home/

19/3/09

2009-03-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

i noticed a very strange thing
when i was in crest, i didnt meet many of my classmates outside school during holidays
but after i transferred to ri, i met many people from crest!
i met xueming, yushan, jocelyn, siewhan, amos just on today and yesterday!

went movie with friends today, but in the end, only me and one guy turned up
what the heck... two people sleeping due to camp
one guy dun know go where
nvr mind that....still went to watch movie
watched 'push" not bad lah, but a bit not exciting enough. feel a bit not worth it, but still ok.
:0:):):):0

18/3/09

2009-03-17T19:56:00.000-07:00

long time never post.... back from camp liao, it was not bad lah.
the activities were quite fun, but the sirs tortured us like mad.
shall not elaborate much, cos too tired liao.
looking forward to meeting my friends for movie!:)

6/3/09

2009-03-06T04:21:00.000-08:00

woo, i ammmmm back!
i had a very interesting friday and thrusday that were somewhat related!
thrusday the whole of ri debates club went to a movie screening of women in the army
(for those who dont know, Israel is the only country with compulsory army service in both sexes)
when we reached there, we heard the film was NC16 (lesbianism) , but in the end the organisers let the sec threes in but not the sec ones. for some reason, i did not find the film so called "unsuitable" for sec ones. anyway, even girls are trained really tough in the army which makes me wonder about what i will do i na few years time.
and i got my answer today. i went to Pulau tekong ns training base camp this afternoon. i get to skip a history test:)) it was ok lah, but quite boring, i get to shoot rifles, it was freaking heavy, and ns training doesnt sound so tough (thats because there were parents there).

i got 26/30 for my maths cct! could have gotten 28 if have time to do bonus question. :P
overall term one is 71% reason? see previous posts concerning 2 class test

tag replies: weilin: yep, but its too slow
desmond: are you busy now?

1/3/09

2009-03-01T05:20:00.000-08:00

its been another week! :0 two more weeks to much holidays! woo~!
i feel like doing a very nerdy thing in this post............
i'm going to recommend two books today! (nerdy, right)
firstly........i have a book called "Numbers". its a book about a 'great' teacher which teaches the students to think for themselves instead of accepting what the textbooks say. its quite interesting with a good (but predictable) twist in the end, and yeah, also got a few love parts inside *ahem*
secondly.........i have "lessons from a dead girl" its a heart-breaking tale about how a young girl sexually abuses another young girl. its a complicated relationship between them, like friends, like couples, like enemies and like strangers. its quite sad ah, but in the end the girls let out their secrets and the abused girl managed to let go of her past after the other girls death.
both these books can be found in the youth section in whitesands library! whoo~! read everybody:D 8B

jeremeel's birthday was really cool! (thats sound random)

20/2/09

2009-02-20T05:41:00.000-08:00

crap.................
failed maths test by a score of 3/10
yeah, it sucks
the 2 and last question 8 mark, totally screwed up.
crap..............
at least chinese got full marks.................

monday and wednesday cca "red cross" until 6
tues and thrus cca "debates" from 5 to 8.
so damn busy...........
worst still, i dont even like red cross..............

13/2/09

2009-02-13T06:05:00.000-08:00

today is friday the thirteenth!
woo!~~
never mind that, havent blogged in a long time, schools been busy. school only ends at 6 for mon and wed, and 8 in tues and thrus, of course coming back so late is not compulsory.
but i like my sub cca---debating! :D
sometimes i wonder what will happen if i didnt come back to singapore, or didnt transfer to ri.
if i didnt come back, i would be extremely busy, preparing of the o level's equivalent in china. and, of course, my studies wont be the top except for science, geography, and english. if i didnt transfer, i will be representing our school for table tennis (hopefully) and studying with people i know, and wont be so busy. i will be in a class with friends and people i would like to study with.

but all is done now, lets just pray for the best and hope!:)

*happy valentines day!* i still dun have girlfriend, but wish a happy day for those who do!

school

2009-01-16T05:26:00.000-08:00

everybody sounds like they've made new friends...sadly the same cant be said for me. have i made any friends during the first week? i can barely remember the names of the people in my class. just talked to most of them, nothing much*sigh* kinda miss my classmates now..........
*sigh* hope that i can make friends more.....
at least got church tmr:)))

2009-01-16T03:47:00.000-08:00

tag replies for the weekend
amos: haha, will try hard to "have fun"
darrell: you did that to annoy me, right?
nelson: pls add me to your msn again, i accidentally clicked cancel. and ayone whoses reading this please tell nelson this.
xueming: i very noob, so i try to stick with one font, if i try to change layout, it would be disasterous.

um... guys.. RI ISNT WHAT YOU THINK... its quite like our school really, just that the canteen is more ex :P and the lessons are just advanced, the students behave just like everyone else. so dont have the misconception that ri students are big brainers or what. :)))

proud obs survivor

2009-01-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

whew~ back from 5 days of torture in outward bound singapore camp in pulau ubin.
in 3 short words, obs was fun fruitful torture.
lets start with the fun part: we did kayaking (paddling boats) in the wide open sea. it was a first for me and also all of my group members. it was very fun and the natural scenery was absolutely beautiful. the lush greenery of the jungle, the sky and the calm blue sea paints a beautiful picture and let me appreciate nature more. the high elements were, as usual, fun, so i wont go into details.

fruitful parts: obs had taught me a lot of things. one most important thing i learnt was that you will never know your limits until you have tested them. one activity was to carry bags containing all our stuff and tents and hike through pulau ubin. that bag i was carring must weight at least 15 kg. at the first 100 metre or so, i was already aching and feel like fainting and giving up. but i preserved on and walked for 2 hours and 10 km, our group was the fastest in the whole (almost) obs history!teamwork was also important, on kayak day no 2, our whole big group worked together and reached the destination half an hour before the time limit!

tourture was much more pronunced than the rest, slept in tent for all nights, hikes and cooking, tracking, seting up things in pitch darkness... etc etc

obs really trains ones leadership a lot, as students need to organize everything by themselves. if you have a chance, please attend it! it would be life changing!

ps. its a bit late, cos not much time on my hands:)

4/1/08

2009-01-03T21:44:00.000-08:00

dint know what to say, the game i bought can be played on my dad's com... upside: i can play that game!!!!! downside: only when my dad allows.....

anyways, school has already started for me, and i am going for outward bound singapore camp from 5~10. it will definetly be memorable.(good or bad still unknown)

NEWS!: my new email is fengyuhui09@gmail.com (due to the reason that my old mail is too revealing) pls add this to your msn!

christmas!

2008-12-24T23:40:00.000-08:00

merry christmas everybody! hope everyone have a good year ahead!

class gathering was ok lah, not much people came, but still quite fun. i saw ms ong in white sands, but when the girls went to find her, she vanished.0_o we rented the movie strangers and went to vanetta's house to watch it. i'm very timid, so i didn't pay attention to the movie for most of the time, its quite a rubbish movie though, no storyline at all! afterwards i need to leave, so the rest stayed and played mah jong.*sigh*

not much people viewing my blog lately, if you come, pls tag ur thoughts:)

will be very busy next year, so might not post for a loooong time, but, eventually will find time, so keep on checking back!

camp!

2008-12-11T04:57:00.000-08:00

back from camp!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!

i really made an impact on me, and the whole place was great for a camp. theres even hot water and bed! the food was also great!

the service was fantastic, it really made an impact on me, and i start to feel God's presence more and more. i feel like i am steadily walking on the path to God. oh, and the camp committee organized a gmae which everybody would give someone a gift and also recieve a gift from someone(called angel and mortal game). i gave my mortal something, and i was really happy when she said thanks. it was also awesome when i recieved the gift from my angel, it made my day! Giving can be fun too!~

we played many games, the most fun was the war game, we get to splash other teams with water bags to prevent them from putting their 'flags' to our base, aat the same time, we need to sent our flags to their base too. too bad it was raining so we cant run. there was also lots of gross games like putting ketchup and flour on other people's faces in the name of make up.

i am so going to the next camp! MEGALIFE CAMP ROCKS!!!!!

on a side note, i am learning to type properly:P noob, right?

4/12/08

2008-12-03T16:58:00.000-08:00

again, quite a long time havent updated. mum has locked the power sorce of the com so cannot use com liao.

dad has come back from usa, and he took a week to get past the jet lag, kinda scares me, i hate it when i cannot sleep.
oh, i will be going to church camp from 7~12, so excited! wonder what will happen there!:)

yesterday when i look up in the sky, i saw many stars, theres one particular star that cant stop flashing, and it emits blue, white and red light. strange... what if its aliens trying to invade earth! just kidding... i read this on a short story. let say powerful aliens will come in peace and offer us the solutions to all our problems. will we accept aliens help but as a return, they will take care of us and do everything? or will we find our own slow and maybe painful way out? interesting...

25/11/08

2008-11-24T21:22:00.000-08:00

yesterday went to play basketball with chessil, waikiat, philip and desmond. they say meet at 2 o clock, but it was not until 3 that we start playing the girls also never come. i was sooo noob! must improve my skills! there was one super pro guy, sec 1 only but as tall as che wei, he one take on ten of us still can win!
oh yay, halfway through the game, one naive boy go say hi to a boy, then he give him the middle finger! thats so rude man! tsk tsk! (although everybody laughed then)

after that philip and us went to sofia's house to give present for her birthday:) since she was not home, so we waited in the void deck with philip:) she came back after like half an hour and saw us from the car park:) quit funny in my opinion

tag replies amos: lol, i wont go the uni so fast lah!

18/11/08

2008-11-17T22:24:00.000-08:00

tag replies
sophia: i wont be moving anywhere:)
yuwen: cant agree more, i got 3 kindergartens, 3 primary schools and 3 secondary schools, hopefully no 3 jc as well:)
nelson: yes, i dont lie on my blog
amos :LOL!

2008-11-14T05:23:00.000-08:00

these are a few photos my father took on his business trip to america, enjoy! *i JUST figured out how to add photos! yay!*
and yes, that guy owns a small private plane:-)

14/11/08

2008-11-14T04:37:00.000-08:00

whao~ quite a lot of reaction to the news o_0
there are decisions that had to be make, just like the decisions that i will come back to singapore instead of stating in china. right now, no one knows wether the decision is good or bad, only time will tell. i can only cross my fingers and pray that the decision is right. sincerely hopes all goes well for everybody:)

went to popular to buy an new book<> which means city of the dead. sooo nice that i finished it within 3 days, cant wait for the final book to come out! tomorrow brother got what suduko challenge in the city, will go shopping with mum while waiting, confirm very sian one*sigh*.

oh and jocelyn dun cry leh:)

bye everyone

2008-11-12T20:20:00.000-08:00

is everyone happy with the class you got into? which class dont matter, be happy and must stay in contact with friends ok?

guess i should tell earier that i am transferring school to RI next year. i will miss everybody~ ;_; must stay in contact and dont forget me!

long time no see

2008-11-08T05:47:00.000-08:00

its been more than two weeks since i posted, soo long ago~~

class chalet is definetly worth it, it was so fun! espically the water bomb fight, everybody got soaked!

i just had a great weekend, went out for the whole day with my friend. we planned to watch a movie, but in the end go arcade play. then went bookshop go read comics and i saw a new book. will go popular buy this weekend!

28/10/08

2008-10-27T18:04:00.000-07:00

tag replies
nelson: dont you spam again~
marilyn: haha, will go lah
yuwen: lol

still wondering wether should i go to the com class, it sounds so boring~
probably will go in the end.
i might do dedications in the next few days, so come back for updates:P

2/8 forever!

2008-10-22T02:55:00.000-07:00

this post is dedicated to two-eight 2008~~
in two days time we would be split to different classes, but the memories will last forever in our hearts. this 1 and half year (for me) is something i will never forget. stay in contact everybody!~

now people call me "china" but when i was in China, people call me "singapore" talk about irony....

hope that this part of time that we spent together will be always close to our hearts. i wont forget my dear classmates!(well, maybe not all:P)

15/10/08

2008-10-15T03:36:00.000-07:00

more results are out huhu~
i'm satisfied with my history(81/100) and science(83/100) which i both do exceed expectations
english, on the other hand, is in complete chaos. 14.5/25(quite good, considering only 6 passes) and 15/30 for paper 2 section a and paper 1 part1 was not what i have in mind. Seems that fate doesnt allows me to have a in english:P

wish all goes well for inter-class competition and the rest of my results.

13/10/08

2008-10-12T22:28:00.000-07:00

thanks to joey, kaiyun and wanqing, my blog had a major makeover and i can link people now!
perfect!
and... yesterday's block/runny nose has competely disappeared!

in saturday, when i was in church
i was shivering like mad when our cell leader prayed for me.
that doesnt feel like cold then, i have never shivered so much before.

today no school... so stay at home play com. what a good day!

10/10/08

2008-10-09T23:57:00.000-07:00

firstly...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEILIN! you're 14!
yes!! the exams are over!!!!!! lets have a good rest and face d-day bravely!

when i was waiting the bus for white sands yesterday, the *insert random rude vulgarity here* bus didnt come for 20 MINUTES!!! and when i was on mrt today, there a *technical* problem which occured 3 times and caused a total delay of 30 minutes... whats going on with singapore's transport?

9/10/08

2008-10-09T01:31:00.000-07:00

so tomorrow is that last paper! its going to be over soon!
holidays are coming...!
i must not fail art though.
todays maths paper was easy, but as usual, i might lose a 1~2marks
never mind though...
and people who are reading this... you'd better draw a final draft for art!:)

7/10/08

2008-10-06T19:59:00.000-07:00

3 exams down, 3 to go!

chinese was a bit hard, but otherwise ok.

i went to my brother's school for lunch(coral primary school)

their drinks are even more expensive then ours! *sigh* inflation......

3/10/08

2008-10-02T22:04:00.001-07:00

todays maths paper was not very hard...... but i most probably lost 4~7 marks.
*sigh* . well, i cant change the result anyway, so onwards with the rest!

went to macdonalds for lunch( overspent!:( ) now have not much to do except surf...

*sigh*

at least it is a friday...

2/10/08

2008-10-02T05:26:00.000-07:00

After two days of figuring, i finally managed to install a tag board! (told you i was a noob:P)

i finally got a phone call iwas waiting for! so happy today!

good luck for tomorrow's exams everybody!!!! :333

1/10/08

2008-10-01T06:10:00.000-07:00

do you know today is China's national day? It's the 59th national day.
whatever had past, had past, so dont worry about english and history. lets focus on science, maths, chinese, literaue and the rest!

yesterday someone boasted about having lots of cash on mrt. money comes at a price... some people may have more of it, but in other aspects of life, they have less. its just that our society focused too much on one single aspect, money, than those which are more important, like family, social relationships. etc. i can say that though i do not have much money, but it is balanced by many other things i have. i have friends, i have a loving family and much more...

25/9/08

2008-09-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

mums out for bread, so i sneaks on for a quick post
xueming looks weird today... wonder what happened?
saw something?
today ms palai scammed me. she is the most absent mided teacher i've ever met.
i think i am more absent mided though...

birthday AND first post!

2008-09-23T00:31:00.000-07:00

tadaa~~
todays my birthday...i am 14.
this is my first post~~
i dislike racists~~ and i am very wery very weird.
so whats weird about you?